How seldom I remember to blog is a bummer, but I am pretty god damn busy most of the time. Still, it inspires me how much my wife Alex blogs (http://alexinwonderlandcooking.blogspot.com/) and I really think I should do it more. Recently I was discussing with my friend Charles how when we were younger, we just assumed we would achieve some major success in one of our creative fields. We used to take making films really seriously. I still taking writing and making music seriously, and Charles is a hilarious stand up comic (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M8G5D_M-pdo).
Now that we are adults with jobs and responsibilities, etc, etc, it is more difficult to justify taking the time required to maintain those passions. I try to practice with my band mate Matt at least twice a week but that seldom happens. I have all but given up on trying to write with any regularity. Does that mean we are somehow blowing it? Or fucking up? Or forgetting who we are? Or does that mean we really were just distracting ourselves by taking all that time making films, writing, and doing stand up, and now we are beginning our lives doing what we should be doing?
I love my life with my wife Alex. I love our dogs and our house and I like mowing the lawn and using my screwdriver. Still, it is hard to imagine a time when I don't have any semblance of a band AT ALL. Yet, I can see that being the case sooner rather than later. And that bums me out. Maybe I'm holding on to who my 13 year old self thought my 23 year old self should have been. Or maybe I was right all along. In any case, the wife, dogs, house, and great job aren't going anywhere and I wouldn't have it any other way. It just depends on how much drive I have to keep up with those extra things I still value so much.
I think it has alot to do with priorities and how those have changed. When we were kids we were mostly dependant on our parents and we did whatever it was that we enjoyed the most. Wife, kids, house, dogs, were something we wanted, but not anytime soon, not until we were ready for those things. We lived a little bit and learned throughout the years that our lives will be more fullfilled by sharing them with someone we care about. That's where our priorities change. We may not be able to enjoy our childhood interests as much, but we still can on occasion. The thing we enjoy most though, among other things is being independent, supporting ourselves, and sharing our lives with those we care about most.
ReplyDeleteI work more than any person reasonably should, and this past weekend I busted out Ableton and make some jams (and listened to some of stuff we crafted in my basement awhile back). Interests and priorities change, no doubt about that. The trick is know whats important to you, and to take your time to yourself as seriously as your time at your work time. So that when you're off, you're off. and htat's your time to pursue what matters.
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